new home.

ashley and i just moved into our first house. it’s through a rent to own program via the sault tribe of chippewa indians housing commission. kind of long huh? ashley brought this up to me the other day but life is funny that way, never in my life did i think that i would be living on a native reservation. it’s a nice three bedroom, one bathroom house with about a half acre of land all for the same price we were paying for on our one bedroom apartment. so more space for the same amount of money. we’re still getting things set into place but i get my own ‘man room’ where i can be loud and maybe write some more music?

growing up.

the past few days i’ve been kind of sick of myself. i feel so whiny, like such a little kid. a lot of different thoughts have crossed my mind and all of them can be classified as being selfish, whiny, and child like. i have to keep reminding myself the difference between needs and wants. there are so many things i would like to have for myself and ashley and we aren’t able to get. i’d like to get a new bass, or mine fixed even, a new recording device, ashley a new computer, better cell phones that actually work. i want all these things and at this particular time they just aren’t accessible. between what we make and bills we have just enough to live. and this i should be happy about, and i am, but of course all of those wants creep back in and make me upset again.

what i should be thinking instead of being pissed off is that we have our own place, that we have jobs, and that we can pay our bills. i know we’re both still young and it’s going to take time to get where we went, but for some reason i am being incredibly impatient. there are just so many things i think ashley even deserves that we can’t supply. and most of all i want to go away for awhile, to an actual honeymoon that we never got to take. and like i said, i’m just being whiny. eventually i take a deep breath and keep putting one foot in front of the other. because one thing i’ve learned is that you’ll never get anywhere standing still.

i think i’m paranoid.

man, i wish i remembered to write in this more. right now ashley and i are down here in owosso to visit and also for kevin’s high school graduation tomorrow, and then on monday my little brother is going to be sworn in as a marine. i congratulate him and wish him luck on his future journey. on a much more somber note a close friend and family member passed away last night. JR’s (ashley’s step father) left us last night. for the past 10 years he’s been fighting cancer and he’s no longer suffering. while it makes me sad that he is gone i am happy to know that he isn’t hurting anymore.

today was a really busy day. we went to flint to shop and we also shopped here in town for a variety of things. i got a new pair of dress pants, some Macbeth shoes, and a sweet new pair of shades. and ashley got a new black shirt while still looking for a new outfit for tomorrow (which we’re going to pick up in the morning). i got to see my sister and my niece summer, so that was pretty nice. summer’s getting really big. i’m really proud of her. she’s almost five and can do a lot of things i wouldn’t expect a four year to do. but anyways folks, i’m off.

hey you people.

so i know i haven’t posted in awhile so all i feel like doing is a quick update and then just bumming around. i started back up at wal mart on saturday. it’s not too shabby. pushing carts is some hard fuckin work, i’ll tell you that much. well when i say hard i mean on the body. i better have some super calves and an awesome tan after this experience because right now they hurt and i’m burnt. i’ve recently fallen in love with a show on food network called ace of cakes. check it out.

mark hoppus and pete wentz are finally letting people know what exactly it is they have concocted tomorrow. which apprenetly is a usb drive. but what is on it? we’ll found out tomorrow. good thing i have tomorrow off to find out.

this is strange.

all the small things.

I found this on Hi My Name Is Mark and I thought I would share it with you,here is an excerpt:

dear at&t.

you can stop sucking now. fix your towers please. i have phone calls to make.

okay, thanks. truly yours.

chad.

feeling lots better.

what do you take when you add one part hanson, one part smashing pumpkins, one part cheap trick and then finishing it off with a little fountains of wayne? tinted windows. this shit is for real.

the sounds of summer.

within the past week it’s been getting pretty nice here in the sault. in an odd way it makes me feel pretty good. as much as i like sweaters and doing wintery-like things the feeling of warm weather and suns rays on my shoulders has an anti-depressant way on me. if i’m feeling sad for some reason i can usually step outside, hope in my truck, roll the windows down, turn up the tunes and enjoy the weather. i think most of my time during the winter is stuck being cooped up. as much as i would like to try snowboarding or snowmobiling i don’t have the means in which to do so so i usually am stuck inside watching tv and eating a lot. don’t get me wrong though, snuggling up with ashley, a blanket and a good movie is always a good time. so welcome summer, i welcome you with open arms.

i have obtained a position here at the local wal mart as a stockman. which basically is the bitch of wal mart. collecting carts, emptying the can collectors, and helping customers carry heavy objects to their cars. don’t get me wrong, i am happy to have this position. it’s income and something to do other than sitting at home all day long. also i don’t have to stay in one department, i get to move around, which is exciting. but one thing i am getting maybe too excited for is the possibility of going back to marquette. within the next few days ashley is going to call sallie mae and see what can be done about getting loans to go back and finish school. number one, i am very happy that ashley is going back to school, she deserves it and i know it will make her very happy. number two, marquette is gorgeous and where i want to spend the rest of my life. a location has never made me happy before like marquette does. so smoke stacks, keep your eyes on the horizon for two awesome kids to come and stay.

on another note i decided to get my hair cut today.