(need a little help)

i’ll be seeing these guys on monday down in grand rapids!

iphone!

so I know it’s been awhile since I have written and I really don’t have a reason for that other than laziness. I really don’t know how many people read this but it doesn’t matter, it’s just a place to jot down my random thoughts as I think that. I’m currently writing the interweb from my new iPhone. I got it at the beginning of December and I absolutely love it. I just found this app on the app store so I got it and here I am. Hope to be writing again soon!

new home.

ashley and i just moved into our first house. it’s through a rent to own program via the sault tribe of chippewa indians housing commission. kind of long huh? ashley brought this up to me the other day but life is funny that way, never in my life did i think that i would be living on a native reservation. it’s a nice three bedroom, one bathroom house with about a half acre of land all for the same price we were paying for on our one bedroom apartment. so more space for the same amount of money. we’re still getting things set into place but i get my own ‘man room’ where i can be loud and maybe write some more music?

i must confess, i am overdressed.

both a.f.i. and paramore will be releasing their newest albums next tuesday, the 29th.
i suggest everyone go pick them up!

suicide is painless.

i’ve been playing my bass a lot more lately and that’s a good thing. i’ve strayed away from playing music for an unknown reason and now i’m back at it. and i’m severely excited. and as i’m pretty sure i mentioned in my last post i’m saving up for my new bass, which i am hoping to have before november rolls around. i sold my truck for 600 dollars, and i have to pay my father-in-law back the 500 for which i got my new car for, which leaves me with an obvious 100 left to do whatever i feel like with. so sometime next week when the title to my truck gets to me i will have half of my bass money.

as far as the working world goes i put in my resume at a electrical/plumbing/hvacr wholesale place here in the sault. they sell supplies conducive to let those people do their jobs. and since i got my degree in hvac i am hoping i get the position. it would get me out of wal mart and into something more up my ally.

if anyone’s interested here is a picture of what my bass will look like, substitute white pickguard for black.

give me a reason to end this discussion.

hey all of those people who don’t read my blog because it takes me forever to write some shit! that was a long sentence. let’s catch you kids up on my life i guess? i’m back to working full time! go me. i got out of that hell hole that is the parking lot and moved myself inside, to the back room, to become an unloader. basically i and the team i am assembled with unload the GM (general merchandise), REMIX, and dairy/frozen trucks so the general population of people can come to wal mart and buy all that shit. still living in the same apartment, but i am hoping to hear good news from the sault tribe housing authority about a house, get excited. a house? fuck yes, ashley leaves and bass noises will be made. loud ones. i own a new car. hendrick is a 1994 turquoise chevrolet cavalier. he’s a cool guy. maybe you’ll meet him one day.

i am finally saving up for my bass. it’s nothing special, well to anyone else, i’m fucking excited however. it’s going to be a squier jazz bass, black, with a black pickguard. for those of you who are thinking, chad, squier is a cheap bass. yes i know that it’s not fender, made by fender, but not exactly, i know this. and on to the real world where money is tight i am playing music on a budget. and i am happy with that. i have played them before and have no problems with it at all. thanks for reading and i hope to update sooner.

ps. i suggest anyone who reads comics check out questionable content. it’s funny and witty.

friends.

i miss being social with the friends i use to have. i miss my old friends.
in a way i blame myself. it’s true that communication is a two way road and for a while i’ve had construction going on my side. i’ve been content just relaxing with myself and ashley of course. but now i realize i’m getting older, obviously not too old, but i’d like to make new friends, and do some repair on those bridges i familiarly walked across less than five years ago. people go their own ways and that’s plainly understood. and once out of school making new friends is a little more difficult. i started a new position and the people i work with are cool folks. but that’s basically the focus of this post is wanting to make new friends and connecting with old ones once again.

growing up.

the past few days i’ve been kind of sick of myself. i feel so whiny, like such a little kid. a lot of different thoughts have crossed my mind and all of them can be classified as being selfish, whiny, and child like. i have to keep reminding myself the difference between needs and wants. there are so many things i would like to have for myself and ashley and we aren’t able to get. i’d like to get a new bass, or mine fixed even, a new recording device, ashley a new computer, better cell phones that actually work. i want all these things and at this particular time they just aren’t accessible. between what we make and bills we have just enough to live. and this i should be happy about, and i am, but of course all of those wants creep back in and make me upset again.

what i should be thinking instead of being pissed off is that we have our own place, that we have jobs, and that we can pay our bills. i know we’re both still young and it’s going to take time to get where we went, but for some reason i am being incredibly impatient. there are just so many things i think ashley even deserves that we can’t supply. and most of all i want to go away for awhile, to an actual honeymoon that we never got to take. and like i said, i’m just being whiny. eventually i take a deep breath and keep putting one foot in front of the other. because one thing i’ve learned is that you’ll never get anywhere standing still.

i look at all the lonely people.

hey, hi, remember me? it’s been a little while. it’s not that i haven’t wanted to write or been lazy but i really just didn’t what to write about. bloggers block? maybe. not too much has changed really. i’m still working at wal mart, looking forward to getting a new position there. a position to be the shoe receiving coordinator has opened up and the department manager from shoes told me about it, since i worked there last summer. so i put in for it and waiting to see what happens. other than that just pushing carts. ashley is still at the mid jim although hopefully she’ll be getting something new as well as a purchasing agent for the tribe. and that’s pretty much been my life in a nut shell. work, sleep, eat. the end.

my bass is currently broken so i’ve been playing my guitar a little bit more and actually learning how to play it. i’ve been using power chords mostly from what i hear is the thing to learn first, so i have. and i’ve learned some pretty interesting songs as well. so far i have down green day’s ‘boulevard of broken dreams’, sum 41’s ‘pieces’, blink 182’s ‘dick lips’ as well as part of ‘adam’s song’ along with the ramones ‘blitzkrieg bop’ so it’s been a learning experience.

kevin graduated a few weeks ago and now he is currently up here visiting with us. we’re waiting on the maintenance guy to fix the door on my fridge because it fell. i don’t know how, it just did. so yeah. have a good one.

i think i’m paranoid.

man, i wish i remembered to write in this more. right now ashley and i are down here in owosso to visit and also for kevin’s high school graduation tomorrow, and then on monday my little brother is going to be sworn in as a marine. i congratulate him and wish him luck on his future journey. on a much more somber note a close friend and family member passed away last night. JR’s (ashley’s step father) left us last night. for the past 10 years he’s been fighting cancer and he’s no longer suffering. while it makes me sad that he is gone i am happy to know that he isn’t hurting anymore.

today was a really busy day. we went to flint to shop and we also shopped here in town for a variety of things. i got a new pair of dress pants, some Macbeth shoes, and a sweet new pair of shades. and ashley got a new black shirt while still looking for a new outfit for tomorrow (which we’re going to pick up in the morning). i got to see my sister and my niece summer, so that was pretty nice. summer’s getting really big. i’m really proud of her. she’s almost five and can do a lot of things i wouldn’t expect a four year to do. but anyways folks, i’m off.